Inner Wildness & Perspective.
A few of the paintings that I have completed, shows a woman with her hair flying freely. Sometimes, these paintings actually depict the essence of people that I know, such as the Guiding Light. I usually paint one or two aspects that is indicative of the inner wildness of that particular woman and also her strengths. Here you can imagine that this woman is actually very strong in the emotional sense. The moon is her shield, so therefore her emotions are too. The sword is her justice, but it also cuts away those parts of her life that no longer serve her well, her hair is her passion, her fire & the Goddess on her dress shows her inner self, accepting herself and what comes with readiness. She is alert and knows who she is, where she is going and what she wants to do. She is protector and justice all in one but she is also highly emotional but uses this to serve her purpose and not the purpose of others around her. She rises from the sea and is a Guiding Light for many other people that may be lost in their own emotional storm.
I greatly enjoy painting these pictures, I really like to "let my hair down" so to speak but sometimes I may paint a woman that has actually and inner aspect of myself, such as The Wild Woman in the Colliding Worlds - The Gift.
This woman is the crone aspect that every woman has within her psyche. We all have this inner old-lady who "keeps her eye" on our behaviour enabling us to be sharp and perspective. Yet if we ignore her voice, as sometimes we do with our inner instincts, then we can get ourselves into all sorts of trouble and end up making some terrible mistakes - & we have all done THAT in our lives! This Wild Woman is elemental and fierce, but there many sides to this inner Goddess-like aspect of a woman when she just KNOWS something!
Being able to create this inner wildness, which is elemental, free, emotionally strong and confident reminds me that this part of us is always there. She exists, just as we do but she is wiser than we. She is part of us all, but does not make up the totality of our entire being & this is where the mistakes can be made. She is the inner voice and because of this, sometimes this part of us does not get heard due to the other thoughts that are clamouring in our heads.
There are many names
for this wild woman or crone-aspect of the Goddess complex, be it Cerridwen,
Kali, Hectate or Baba Yaga. We all have this life-death-rebirth cycle within ourselves but what I really wanted to say is this; All is one: We can be young children but be old souls and we can be old but at times like little children all at the same time. The lines of separation are not as clear-cut as we believe but it is learning to embrace these inner aspects that leads to greater balance in our daily lives. Nobody gets
it right - ever, if there is somebody out there smugly thinking that
they do not seem to make the mistakes that others make or they do not suffer from the pitfalls of ego they either have not yet seen them for what they are or this time is yet to come, we cannot avoid learning these most painful lessons & it is important in helping us grow & we become better people because of them.
Both me and my daughter are 'old souls'. It's not easy when you are younger but I've found it to be something that I've now grown into and am comfortable with. I just need to hang onto my inner child a bit more. Wonderful post. Cath x
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